Hello, and welcome to the fourth installment of my blog! I hope everyone had a very safe and fun New Year's. With that, let's get started.
Before I really get into things this week, I want to let you, the reader, know that some things will get a bit personal in this blog. It's been a very emotional roller coaster this week and it's affected my work ethic and motivation in a sense. So with that, I feel it is of relative importance to mention, in addition to mentioning. With that, I'll be mentioning my experiences from absolute worse to relative wellness. This is so you don't leave too upset before you leave. With that, let's get started.
For those of you who know me, my grandfather passed away in November. His stories and experiences inspired me, in a way, to write this blog. It was a tough time to get through, but I feel like I've been handling it well. For a while, thinking about my family back home affected my work, and ultimately left me drained. But it's been a few months since then, and I feel as though as I started to heal. But, earlier this week, a very good friend of mine's mother past away from cancer. Some of you reading this may know who this person is, and if you do, you would know it was tragic. Now, I don't know how long the cancer was around for, but my friend's family only found out a few months ago. For as much as I know, I don't know much, other than it was probably aggressive. Something like that is truly terrible. For those of you who had to live through a family member who has or has had cancer is awful. To know that pain and see a person who is close to you go through the same thing is awful. A lot of times you don't know what to do, or you have a sense of helplessness. Just know, that being there for them is enough. Showing support is the best thing you can do. People need space to figure things out for themselves and find their way. Just to let you know, I am typing this not just for you, but for myself as well. I believe that even wise people that have been through Hell even needs guidance. Not everyone is perfect. Anyway, I'm not religious, or spiritual, but my heart goes out to my friend's family.
Time to move on to sad news that is also positive. Another brother from another mother went to the hospital yesterday to see if she can get a new lung. She's been battling this thing for years and she isn't giving up. The fact that she's had to wait so long is lame, but at least it's somewhere. In a week, we will hear back to see if she will be able to receive the new lung, which I hope the news will be a positive. This woman has brought me into her home and made me feel welcome. She feeds me, and lets me crash there when I don't feel like being at home. She's pretty cool. So, it's upsetting that she has to go through all this, but at the same time, it'd be worse if she didn't.
With all of that, it's (not so) easy to say that I'm a bit upset. In fact, I sort of withdrew into game a little bit more than working like I planned to. I was not a complete hermit, though. I still went out, and continued to try and keep myself in high spirits. For example: I went shooting (so much fun), I crawled downtown Tempe meeting new people, and I beat Dead Space 3 (again). Even though I was down, I had to find ways that I had to keep myself up. The best thing to do in these situations is to keep trudging and do what you can. Speaking of which, I really need to take my own advice. I really need to work on my Killing Floor map. Now, I didn't completely shirk it last week. I made a few changes here and there that I discussed last week and I am pleased with it. In fact, as I type this, I decided I'll make a follow-up post to this tomorrow (1/8/16) dedicated to just that. So far, I feel like this post is getting long enough, and this was just something to vent. Things that bring a person down can seriously affect the way they handle situations. Quite possibly, I could learn a thing or two about keeping my emotions in check enough so that it doesn't completely bring work to a screeching halt. But we'll see. I believe with writing this, it helps a lot.
One last update before I sign off of this thing. I swear, it's a positive one. Seriously. I got Playstation ISOs to work on my Raspberry Pi! Honestly, it was an easy feat and there wasn't much to it. But, I am excited to play some games I never really got to play. It also increases the novelty a bit. So now that I have the games, now I just need to print out a case, and adjust some settings on the thing and it'll truly be mine. If you guys read the article I posted a while back and are curious about it, just PM me in the contact section of my site and I'll be more than happy to help you out with it...or if you have my number. I'm sure most of you who are reading this has my number.
Anyway, thank you all for reading my super moody post. Or you didn't, that's okay too. If you come back tomorrow, I promise I will deliver on the awesome game design stuff. You know, what this portfolio website is supposed to be made for. So, see ya then! And remember, keep on going, no matter what!...and screw cancer!
For those of you who know me, my grandfather passed away in November. His stories and experiences inspired me, in a way, to write this blog. It was a tough time to get through, but I feel like I've been handling it well. For a while, thinking about my family back home affected my work, and ultimately left me drained. But it's been a few months since then, and I feel as though as I started to heal. But, earlier this week, a very good friend of mine's mother past away from cancer. Some of you reading this may know who this person is, and if you do, you would know it was tragic. Now, I don't know how long the cancer was around for, but my friend's family only found out a few months ago. For as much as I know, I don't know much, other than it was probably aggressive. Something like that is truly terrible. For those of you who had to live through a family member who has or has had cancer is awful. To know that pain and see a person who is close to you go through the same thing is awful. A lot of times you don't know what to do, or you have a sense of helplessness. Just know, that being there for them is enough. Showing support is the best thing you can do. People need space to figure things out for themselves and find their way. Just to let you know, I am typing this not just for you, but for myself as well. I believe that even wise people that have been through Hell even needs guidance. Not everyone is perfect. Anyway, I'm not religious, or spiritual, but my heart goes out to my friend's family.
Time to move on to sad news that is also positive. Another brother from another mother went to the hospital yesterday to see if she can get a new lung. She's been battling this thing for years and she isn't giving up. The fact that she's had to wait so long is lame, but at least it's somewhere. In a week, we will hear back to see if she will be able to receive the new lung, which I hope the news will be a positive. This woman has brought me into her home and made me feel welcome. She feeds me, and lets me crash there when I don't feel like being at home. She's pretty cool. So, it's upsetting that she has to go through all this, but at the same time, it'd be worse if she didn't.
With all of that, it's (not so) easy to say that I'm a bit upset. In fact, I sort of withdrew into game a little bit more than working like I planned to. I was not a complete hermit, though. I still went out, and continued to try and keep myself in high spirits. For example: I went shooting (so much fun), I crawled downtown Tempe meeting new people, and I beat Dead Space 3 (again). Even though I was down, I had to find ways that I had to keep myself up. The best thing to do in these situations is to keep trudging and do what you can. Speaking of which, I really need to take my own advice. I really need to work on my Killing Floor map. Now, I didn't completely shirk it last week. I made a few changes here and there that I discussed last week and I am pleased with it. In fact, as I type this, I decided I'll make a follow-up post to this tomorrow (1/8/16) dedicated to just that. So far, I feel like this post is getting long enough, and this was just something to vent. Things that bring a person down can seriously affect the way they handle situations. Quite possibly, I could learn a thing or two about keeping my emotions in check enough so that it doesn't completely bring work to a screeching halt. But we'll see. I believe with writing this, it helps a lot.
One last update before I sign off of this thing. I swear, it's a positive one. Seriously. I got Playstation ISOs to work on my Raspberry Pi! Honestly, it was an easy feat and there wasn't much to it. But, I am excited to play some games I never really got to play. It also increases the novelty a bit. So now that I have the games, now I just need to print out a case, and adjust some settings on the thing and it'll truly be mine. If you guys read the article I posted a while back and are curious about it, just PM me in the contact section of my site and I'll be more than happy to help you out with it...or if you have my number. I'm sure most of you who are reading this has my number.
Anyway, thank you all for reading my super moody post. Or you didn't, that's okay too. If you come back tomorrow, I promise I will deliver on the awesome game design stuff. You know, what this portfolio website is supposed to be made for. So, see ya then! And remember, keep on going, no matter what!...and screw cancer!